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whoever said life is fair was lying. the same goes for lightning never striking twice.

Posted on 2009.12.12 at 21:53
How I feel about it all: crushedcrushed
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This afternoon I found Natalie on the bathroom floor. I don't know if she was having a seizure or a heart attack or what, but one thing she wasn't doing was breathing. I'm pretty sure she wasn't choking on anything because I swept her mouth and didn't find anything, and she didn't even gag. I rushed her out the door and into the car, but she was gone before we reached the emergency vet. I think she was gone before I got her out the door.

This wasn't the sad but somehow peaceful scene like what happened with Stormy--this was sudden and unexpected and there was no time to say goodbye. Up to then Nat had been fine-- eating and sleeping and meowing and being herself. She may have been a tiny bit quieter today, but I'm just guessing, who knows? The vet at the emergency place said they couldn't tell what happened, but it could have been anything from a seizure to heart failure. It was over in seconds, and I have no idea how or why and I probably never will. I could have asked for an autopsy, but what would be the point? I keep feeling guilty even though I know I'm being stupid because she was loved and fed and petted and cared for.

And now I've lost two cats in less than a week. WTF, God?

I can't remember a time when there wasn't a cat in my life.

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akamine_chan
akamine_chan at 2009-12-13 03:09 (UTC) ()
Oh, Prim, I'm so, so sorry. That's so unfair - losing both of them so close together and to not have time to say goodbye...that has to be the worst way to lose a beloved pet.

*hugs you tightly*

And you have no reason to feel guilty. Natalie was loved and petted and cared for. She had a good life; you can't let yourself doubt that.

Edited at 2009-12-13 03:11 (UTC)
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 03:20 (UTC) ()
Everything I can find on the internet about sudden death in cats points to some kind of stroke or heart failure. It's possible she could have choked on something very small, but I'm thinking the heart failure is more likely.

Right now I'm still in shock, I think.


*hugs back*
exbex
exbex at 2009-12-13 03:15 (UTC) ()
I'm so sorry, Prim. Your cats were really lucky to have you as their human though.
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 03:23 (UTC) ()
Thanks, dear. They were pretty awesome themselves. And I doubt I'll go TOO long without a kitty--it's lonely around here right now.
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meresy at 2009-12-13 03:16 (UTC) ()
Oh nooo. That's terrible, but there wasn't anything you might have done different. Just very sad. *hugs*
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 03:22 (UTC) ()
She was my niece's cat to begin with, which makes me feel even worse. I know it's not my fault, but I guess it's human to feel like it is. *clings*
meandering
effervescent at 2009-12-13 03:24 (UTC) ()
Oh, sweetheart, I am so sorry. :( I can't imagine - losing one is hard enough, let alone two. ♥
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 03:27 (UTC) ()
Thanks. I wasn't going to open this post up for comments, but I'm glad I did--your kind thoughts are so very welcome. *hugs*
HurrySundown
hurry_sundown at 2009-12-13 03:33 (UTC) ()
Oh geez, Prim. I'm so sorry. *hugs*
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 03:58 (UTC) ()
*hugs back*
Tara
elementalv at 2009-12-13 03:34 (UTC) ()
I am so, so sorry to hear that. It's always horrible to lose a pet, but I can't begin to imagine what it was like to lose two within a week. You have my deepest sympathy.

Edited at 2009-12-13 03:35 (UTC)
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 04:02 (UTC) ()
I'm still reeling, seriously. My kids are all, don't get another cat, but after a fashion, I think I will. I haven't been without one since, hmmm. I'm not sure if I ever have. I'm hoping one will find me. *g*
sam80853
sam80853 at 2009-12-13 03:56 (UTC) ()
Oh no, Prim. ::hugs::... That is seriously fucked, excuse my French.

I hope you will find comfort in knowing that she was well-taken care off. That she had an awesome life with you.

::HUGS::
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 04:00 (UTC) ()
She had a couple of years with me, and before that was very well-loved by my niece and my sister. She'll be missed by all of us.

I still have your story, and will likely get it back to you Monday. Tomorrow is Juliana's first birthday party (she turns one year old on Christmas, where did the time go?), but Monday afternoon's wide open. *hugs*

Also? Your icon is beautiful.
fenlings
fenlings at 2009-12-13 04:19 (UTC) ()
I'm so sorry. Losing them both in a week does seem extreme. But who knows, maybe there is some reason they chose to go now, maybe your life is about to change in some other way. ::hugs::
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 04:25 (UTC) ()
maybe your life is about to change in some other way.

You know, I thought about that. Maybe there's a sea change coming. I hope it's something good. *hugs you tight*


On an un-sad, entirely unrelated note--in case you didn't get to see it--I recced you over here. :)
Sonia
mrs_laugh_track at 2009-12-13 04:36 (UTC) ()
Oh honey I'm so sorry.
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 04:59 (UTC) ()
Me too. And thanks. *hugs*
ruthless1
ruthless1 at 2009-12-13 04:42 (UTC) ()
I am so sorry to hear this. That is just so much to have to bear in just one week.
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 05:02 (UTC) ()
Tomorrow is Juliana's first birthday party. At least that's a good thing. :)
jenn_unplugged
jenn_unplugged at 2009-12-13 04:46 (UTC) ()
How horrible! I'm so sorry. :-(
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 05:03 (UTC) ()
Yeah, life divebombs sometimes. Thanks, honey. :)
Junesrose
junesrose at 2009-12-13 04:49 (UTC) ()
Oh hun, I'm so sorry to hear about your cats. This is an awful thing. Know that I'm thinking of you and sending my love.

*hugs*
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 05:01 (UTC) ()
*clings* Thanks, my dear.
Isis
isiscolo at 2009-12-13 04:52 (UTC) ()
I'm so sorry for your loss. And don't feel guilty; it is not your fault.
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 05:01 (UTC) ()
It's weird, because, you're right, and I know it's not my fault, but still, it's such a freaking double-whammy.

Also, your icon makes me smile. :)

Edited at 2009-12-13 05:01 (UTC)
omphale
omphale23 at 2009-12-13 06:59 (UTC) ()
Oh, sweetie. I'm so, so sorry.
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 11:32 (UTC) ()
*cuddles* Thank you, lovey.
Lissa
starflowers at 2009-12-13 08:09 (UTC) ()
That's awful, I'm so so sorry. *hugs* But if I know anything about cats, I know that they've got a way of finding you when they need you, so I'm sure it won't be too long until you've got another cat in your life.

I'm also pretty sure that I don't know anyone who would have given a lucky cat the best and most loved life possible, so you don't need to feel guilty about that.
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primroseburrows at 2009-12-13 11:36 (UTC) ()
I figure another kitty will find me eventually, because for me not to have one puts the universe all off-kilter and stuff. *hugs back*
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